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» I’m SWITZER-FUCKING-LAND! by eXo

Currently in bus reaching KL.
Currently conquering 4 seats at behind of the bus.

I have huge urge in myself when I was starting wrote this post. I kept thinking repeatedly about this and yes, I couldn’t stop thinking anymore and just open my MacBook while I was still on the bus just to satisfy myself by writing this down.

Here how the story started, once upon a time, I was no one and just get a long with everyone, including everyone. Being a newcomer in the field makes me wanted to know almost everyone related to the field. So I’ve decided to just get along with anyone I get to know since I don’t want to lose anyone as my friend. Getting to know more and more by just hanging around, listening and observing most of them, make me wonder on a lot of thing, since I get to listen a lot of thing.

When this though of me happened, I’ve decided to be just a neutral person without being attached to anyone. Completely neutral.  So being neutral makes me feel more comfortable with anyone even in a complicated situation. Anything happened, I’ll just be a Switzerland. This happened even when someone bitching over someone. As an easy example A bitching on B and I was there. I’ll just listen to A and just shrug. Why? Cause I’m Switzerland. Same thing happened when B is bitching on A, and I was there. I just keep the same and shrugging. Why? Cause I’m fucking Switzerland. Even when I met both parties/sides, I’ll just keep what are the other side bitching on each of them, to myself and just me. WHY? CAUSE I’M FUCKING SWITZERLAND.

After a while, I am involved in two parties, which I happily involve with them. At first, nothing happened and they are all great. I love hanging around with them. At one point, these parties have a clashing opinion, which leading to a big misunderstanding, which I myself won’t have much to say since I’m just another newcomer to them. With my own principal that I stick to since the early stages on getting to know them, I kept myself being Switzerland. Hanging around with these two parties, listening to them, even when they bitch on each other. Cause why? I’m just a fucking Switzerland. I know why both side hating each other and bitching with it. I just plainly listening to them without getting involve or encounter with each other. Which, at the same time I try myself to kept what are they bitching just to myself and only me. I’m glad that I still can hold my early principal when get to know them.

At one point, one of these two sides gets to know that I’m hanging around with other side. This lead on me being call as backstabber when they are assuming that’s I’ve backstab them while I’m still staying being Switzerland. Yet, it still going on, and I wouldn’t really mind if they only themselves that assuming that I’m a backstabber themselves which they, themselves just assuming things without properly investigate about the matter. However, what that I couldn’t really understand when they bitching or in polite form spreading ‘news’ that I backstabbed them, when in reality it didn’t happened at all. Although all these things happened and I do know about it, playing a nice guy role so I don’t really to make a fuss about it. Thus I let it slide, hoping that they realize the real position that I’m in.

Regardless all these things happened to me. I keep continuing my life as usual pretending that it will cool off anytime soon. I however still couldn’t understand why did these party spreading it to the outside world although these cases has nothing to do with it, which they are not supposedly know in the first place. So this actually show the ethic of the party itself on not be able to keep the privacy matter from leaking to outside. Or could I say that they’re lack of professionalism?

Sorry for the super-long-wall-of-text. My rant ended here.

PS¹: This is for anonymous.
PS²: Don’t know WTF is “I’m Switzerland”? Here : http://bit.ly/d4FIoF

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